Saturday, April 3, 2010

Taking a decision

I wrote about choices and the freedom to choose...

I have had too many things on my mind these past couple of weeks..... I have been falling into lapses of  decisive and indecisiveness..... at one point I am very sure what I want and the next morning I am not sure anymore... that the thing I had been so sure about earlier would be the right thing to do....

 The said thing on my mind is whether or not I should continue to work.... I have never worked anywhere before, then I went out and took a job, now I am not sure I want to work any more for a number of reasons and the No.1 reason being my children... I am not giving them my 100 %...
As a result my 5 yr old son is learning foul language and my 7 yr old daughter is behaving like a teenage rebel.... which was not the case 6 months ago when I was there for them 24x7..

Guess, I need to make a choice here.... priortize...

And so I have finally made a decison.... that nothing is more important than my kids, so I have decided to quit my job and be a stay at home mom.

I don't know how this is going to affect my life in general but I do know that it will make a profound difference in my kids lives... and that will make it all worthwhile...

Monday, March 22, 2010

The option to choose.

I have been going through a rough patch, the past few days. No matter how hard I tried to follow on the advice of my well wishers, I found myself doing it all wrong....  and in turn feeling worse about the fact , that I've been making things more and more complicated..... My head felt like a heavy ball of lead....

Then I Prayed,  cried to  my Lord and took refuge in him..... The answer I recieved for my prayers was simple, I didn't have to worry myself for I had a choice in the matter.... I can go on taking the tension for unimportant things or I could find a way out of it... the choice is mine and after all there is no problem or complication without a solution to it.... the solutions are right in front of us, all we need is focus.... all that's needed of us is to figure it out....

So, shouldn't we be grateful that we as human beings have a greatest blessing to choose......


My gratitude for the option to choose...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

My Mom...

My Mom is my pillar of strength...

I cannot say that she has been a perfect example of motherhood or she was always there for us ( my brother and I). But she, like all moms' has always wanted what is best for us..... although, her way of showing it has been different..... My mom was done with all the hugging, kissing and pampering by time we turrned five....

As I  was reaching adolosence....  I became a rebel of sorts... always arguing with her, for not letting me go out with my friends... for her barging in on my phone calls.... etc... and in the process of being a typical adoloscent I must say, I ended up hurting my mom a lot... I did not see her love for me.... I was blind....

Then, at the age of 21 I got married...As the days of the D- day were closing in, I started to feel a weight on my heart, I cried for leaving behind everything that belonged to me, my room, my memories........ then on my wedding day, I felt like I was hit by a bulldozer, cause until then the idea that I was going to leave mom and go had not seeped in.... other things yes, but not my mom....... May be the taught that I was leaving her, brought me closer to my mom....

Over the years, I got  to know her as a person and not just my mom, what were her dreams, her likes and dislikes... and I realised how much She has actually sacrificed for bringing us up.... The times when I felt mom's being unfair to me, she was actually worried for me.... She never praised us or bragged about us while other mother's would be bragging about their child's achievements..... but she was thrilled when others praised us...  there is so much I have learnt from her.... She taught me kindness and compassion.... She taught me to be independent.... Most of what I am today is because of her.....

Now, when I think back to my chilhood and adoloscent days, I realise Mom was always there..... without letting us know of her presence.... but she was always there... in her way doing what she thought was best for us...

That's my mom..... quietly showering her love on us..... without an extravagant display.....

Thank you mom for being you.......

I  LOVE YOU !!!! For Everything you are and Eveything you have been for me....

Monday, March 15, 2010

Count your blessings....

 We are blessed with so, many good things in our lives..... This is just a reminder....
I thank God for giving me this life, even though at times when my spirits are low I may not appriciate it.... I am going to try to appriciate this life more and be thankful and content always.... Inshallah( If God wills).

The following story, which I have received from a friend by email, carries an important lesson that we all should learn.



There was an old woman who lived with her only child in a simple, roofless room at the top of an old building. The door of the room was in a very bad state, and it did not work well. Getting bored with fixing it, the woman took it off and put it against one of the walls.



This may be endurable in summer, but what about winter? How can this woman and her little child spend a rainy, cold winter in such a room with no roof or even door?



Winter came with its freezing winds and rain. One day, the sky became cloudy, and it began to heavily rain, directly on the heads of the woman and her child. Unlike other people who had impenetrable roofs and who could protect themselves against rain by closing their doors and windows, this old woman had no shelter to protect her and her little boy.



The helpless woman found nowhere to escape the heavy rain except that broken, useless door. She took her child tightly in her arms and shrank beneath the leaning door, which now proved very useful.



No matter how hard we may try, we would never be able to change our destiny. Hence, we should accept it and submit to the will of our Lord.
Luckily, the rain did not last for a long time; it stopped soon and the sun came up again. Happy with this simple shelter that protected them from getting wet, the boy said to his mother, "Praise be to Allah that we have this door, Mom. What can those who do not have such a door do?"



This innocent child felt so content and satisfied with such conditions that many of us may consider as bad. That was because he looked at the full half of the cup, not the empty one. We all should act likewise, if we are to achieve a true sense of happiness and contentment.





You Have More Than You Think



It is true that many people have more than you. But, you are also bestowed with many things that others do not have:



* You have two eyes, but some others have one or none.
* You have two legs, while there are others who cannot walk.
* You can eat whatever you wish. Think of those who are forbidden by their doctors from a long list of foods and those who find nothing to eat.
* You drink clean water, and there are thousands, or even millions, of others who drink unclean water.
* You have a few children, while others long to have only one.
* Your children have a father who supplies their needs. Have you ever thought about those kids who lost their fathers in wars, accidents, or disasters?
* You have a flat or a house to live in, while there are many others who face expulsion, living in tents or in the open.
* You live safely in your country, while millions of others are jeopardized by raids, bombings, and other threats.
* You are free, knowing not about many sincere reformers who are unlawfully imprisoned and deprived of their most basic right: freedom.




Even if you do not have many of the forgoing blessings, you surely have many others.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

A Romantic Song........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KqpIIaCJggY

Ankhiyon Ke Jharokhon Se................. I Love this Classic Hindi Song........ The movie of the same name was realeased in the year 1978.... I wasn't even born then......For some reason I am stuck with this song in my head since morning...... I googled up the video and somehow the melody is so touching and it took me back to the good times spent with my husband.......... We have had our ups and downs like every couple does....... but I've just realized how much we take eachother for granted....... I don't remember when was the last time I appreciated his thoughtful gestures...... Today I am going to do that....... and I am filled with gratitude to be sharing my life with him....

The lyrics of the song......

 Ankhiyon Ke Jharokhon Se Maine Dekha Jo Saanware
Tum Door Nazar Aaye Badi Door Nazar Aaye
Band Karke Jharokhon Ko Zara Baithee Jo Sochne
Man Mein Tumhi Muskaye Man Mein Tumhi Muskaye
Ankhiyon Ke Jharokhon Se

Ek Man Tha Mere Paas Woh Ab Khone Laga Hai
Paakar Tujhe Hai Mujhe Kuchh Hone Laga Hai
Ek Tere Bharose Pe Sab Baithee Hoon Bhool Ke
Yoon Hi Umar Guzar Jaye Tere Saath Guzar Jaye
Ankhiyon Ke Jharokhon Se...

Jeeti Hoon Tumhe Dekh Ke Marti Hoon Tumhi Pe
Tum Ho Jahan Saajan Meri Duniya Hai Wahin Pe
Din Raat Dua Maange Mera Man Tere Waaste
Kabhi Apni Ummeedon Ka Kahin Phool Na Murjhaye
Ankhiyon Ke Jharokhon Se...

Maein Jab Se Tere Pyar Ke Rangon Mein Rangi Hoon
Jaagte Hue Soi Nahin Neendon Mein Jagi Hoon
Mere Pyar Bhare Sapne Kahin Koi Na Chheen Le
Man Soch Ke Ghabraye Yahi Soch Ke Ghabraye
Ankhiyon Ke Jharokhon Se...

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Glorious Weekend Mornings....

Weekends.......

The extra hours of sleep..........

Lazing in the bed......

Kid's getting cozy with us........

Chats with the hubby in bed......

Kid's Telling their stories.....

Their pillow fights......

Some how morning's in the weekends are glorious........... everything is done in a slow and leisurely pace...

Grateful that God gave us weekends.....

Monday, February 15, 2010

Laughter in a small package...

             My daughter has learnt a few tongue twisters in her school..... and every night since, lying in her bed she practices them, and my son follows his sister in doing so..... and the result is we end up laughing our bellies out...
 And last night My little girl wanted us to pay her some attention, so both the dad and I, fixed our gaze on her, and she told the "Betty bought some butter......... " flawlessly..... we were impressed and gave her a bit of an applause.... a little while later she called out to me in the dark.... " mama, why didn't you laugh when I said it?" So, we made her say it again and we all laughed to make her happy....... even her little brother....:) And in return the forced laughter brought out the real laughter from us......                                                                                          I am grateful for such times........... My gratitude goes out to the small things in life that bring laughter and joy in our lives.....